To do or not to do

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Lately, it seems like few things keep coming back again and again as issues. These are things that I might have pushed under the rug or put on a back burner in my "to-do" list. But, somehow over the years, it has never been done. 

Over time, I have paid the price for ignoring these things, but people near and dear to me have probably experienced more consequences of my actions or non-actions.

It wouldn't be an over-statement to say that - I'm the queen of procrastination. There are always excuses for why something doesn't get done, especially when it doesn't hit my radar. Procrastination is the bane of my existence.

I guess if something is a priority, we find a way to make it happen. If it isn't, we come up with the next best thing - we make excuses and feel bad for ourselves. I'm increasingly finding that this is a sorry way to live.

Sometimes, I spend the whole day just rushing around doing things for the kids or managing the home. But, it is at the expense of blatant neglect of myself. 

For the next few months, my prayer would be to slow down, take time to enjoy what I've been given, and appreciate what I've been blessed with. To take time to nurture myself. To stop - smell the roses, go for a walk, do some exercise, get a haircut or go pamper myself, and BREATHE.

"Whoever watches the wind will not plant; whoever looks at the clouds will not reap." (Ecc 11:4)
If you wait for perfect conditions, you'll never get anything done and you're going to wait for a long time. 

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