Random musings

Every once in a while, I get the itch. The itch that says, "what are you doing with your life?". "Don't you have better things to accomplish than sit at home and take care of a child?" "What if, you are stuck doing this for the rest of your life?". Staying at home to take care of my little one was never an easy decision for me. But, at those moments, I hear a gentle voice reminding me of the blessing and privilege to be a parent - and a mother. I have heard someone say, "There is no greater place of ministry, position or power than that of a mother". It is true that as a mother, I have been put in a capacity to influence, nurture and mold my child. I spent some time, thinking about what God would expect out of me as a parent. A heart that has a passion for teaching God's word A woman who in her own heart has a deep and abiding passion for God's word can try to instill the same in her children. God's word has value for salvation a

We are studying John, at the bible study fellowship. Notes from the lectures - John 18:1-27 1) Do you like to be in control? Our thoughts, emotions, future, day to day events in our life, including parenting, work, relationships. We cannot control anything. Even things that we thought were achieved by our merit, has been purely God's grace. God is in control of every situation. It's only when we lean to draw on God's strength, can we truely give up control. 2) How did Judas betray Jesus for some money? We do that all the time, by clinging to worldly things, by sideling God and not making him a priority. 3) Jesus was not a helpless, defeated victim. He gave up his life being in complete control, because of his father's will. When we commit to God, he protects you. (I have not lost a single one of those you gave me). 4) We have to surrender to be in control by Jesus. Else, we are controlled by sin. Admit the bondage of sin. Do not downplay it, justify it, or wish it away.

When I say..."I am a Christian" I'm not shouting "I am saved" I'm whispering "I get lost!" "That is why I chose this way." When I say..."I am a Christian" I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need someone to be my guide. When I say..."I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak and pray for strength to carry on. When I say..."I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed and cannot ever pay the debt. When I say..."I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to be perfect, my flaws are too visible but God believes I'm worth it. When I say..."I am a Christian" I still feel the sting of pain I have my share of heartaches which is why I seek His name. When I say..."I am a Christian" I do not wish to judge. I have no authority. I only know I'm loved.